I have officially done something that I swore I wouldn't when I first began escorting, and that is, completely immersing myself into this industry.  Hell, I even kept my 9-5 job just to have some sense of normalcy.  But the longer I do this, the more it becomes normal to me.  Every single friend, associate, confidant, and lover in my life is in some way a part of the Adult industry; whether they are Escorts, Courtesans, Dominatrix, Porn producers, Porn Stars, Strippers, Pimps, Photographers, Erotic writers, and Escort agency owners.  Every single wonderful memory that I've had recently was with someone in that arena.

Like for instance, going to Palm Springs for the Gay Porn awards, and staying at this wonderful villa near the desert with some of the hottest Gay boys in the business.  It was magical, driving around the beautiful Palm Springs desert at night, and visiting the owner of Rentboy.com, and hanging out in his mansion at his annual pool party.  Then waking up the next morning and being treated to a $200 breakfast at the swanky Parker Palm Springs Hotel, courtesy of the wonderful Randyblue.com

Let's not forget going to Paris Last year with my best friend of 12 years who is also the cameraman for Randyblue.com

It's sad that I only have a few regular friends that I associate with; and as hard as I try to pretend to be this regular nurse Betty Erika, the more I refuse to want that life.  God, if my life only consisted of kids, husbands, whirlpool and carpool, I'd FUCKING DIE!

I sit and listen to my one regular friend yell at her kids all day, while cooking and cleaning for her husband, and I just THANK GOD everyday that that sort of existence skipped me.